Before I jump right into the pattern, today I’m going to tell you a personal story with a good ending. I want to put a disclaimer on this portion however because it could be a trigger for some who have experienced workplace harassment. If you want to skip on down to the pattern feel free and it won’t hurt my feelings at all. I’m going to place another ‘Please PIN ON Pinterest’ bar, just like the one above, where the pattern portion starts.
This hat design was so fun to stretch my creative side. And when it came time to take the pattern photos I spent the morning prepping. Believe it or not, it doesn’t always feel natural to be in front of a camera for me. But the beautiful thing about technology is, I can be my own photographer and snap images in my own little world, alone. So when I was feeling a little stiff, I did one of my favorite things and blasted music. Dance party for one? Yes please.
And let me tell you I have fun just giggling and dancing by myself. I’m going to recommend this to you. It’s life-changing and so important to keep things light. Think of it as therapy.
Even though I wasn’t sure if any of the images would be good, the point was to take a moment to be in my own skin.
And then came the time to transfer the photos into the computer and see if one or two out of a couple hundred might work. At least that’s what it feels like. So many out-takes lol. I was feeling pretty good about accomplishing a task and then I had a negative trigger.
I hoped someday the things from my past would fade away, but then something small will bring them rocketing back. This one was a mild trigger, but sometimes the mild ones can bring up nasty old scars. This trigger made me question if I should publish these images.
It was my mid-drift. And it’s not that I didn’t think I looked okay, it’s the shame of being immodest. An unfounded, hurtful, cruel shame placed on women. This word immodest will make me cringe until I die. I’ve never once heard a man be called immodest, even if he was shirtless.
The memory that hit me was from 2001. I was a senior in High School and working in a business office most afternoons. The only other woman in the office was a front desk secretary and the men held the power. One in particular always gave me a hard time. I never understood his motives but years later I have my theories.
On this particular day, I came to the office in a very dull, generic, button-up top and black pants office wear. This man stopped me right after entering the door with a disapproving look on his face and said, ‘Raise your arms.’
I was really dumbfounded and confused. I slowly raised my arms as he stared at my body. As my elbows met shoulder height he shook his head, “It’s too short. I can almost see your belly. You shouldn’t be dressed like that.’
I didn’t respond right away, I felt the heat of shame coming to my face. I did a double check on my ‘mistake’. Had I chosen the wrong outfit? Was I projecting something I didn’t intend? But my belly wasn’t showing, it was sitting at the top of my pants. I pointed this out. But it wasn’t good enough. He simply said, ‘A girl like you shouldn’t dress that way, if you moved your hands higher your mid-drift would show, it’s not modest.’
I felt dirty. I felt ashamed. A girl like me? I was a virgin, I had only kissed one boy, one. And I felt pretty guilty about that all the time. The adult me would have screamed in that moment. A woman can express herself, and her body, in whatever way she wants. But in this teenage powerless moment, I was questioning all the ‘mistakes’ I had ever made according to men.
I thought I had chosen the right professional outfit. As I sat at my computer I felt mixed emotions. I really did not think my outfit was inappropriate in the least. I sat silent, holding back tears, wondering when I would escape this shaming misogyny that seemed to find me every single day I breathed.
‘And then I knew the answer. I even whispered it.
I vowed to be my own boss.’
I was going to become the protector of myself. That moment was only the beginning of a very difficult journey. But as I look at these images that caused all these emotions and feelings to come flooding back; I realized I needed to once again push away the negative programming that was done. There was nothing wrong with these images. Nothing.
Yes, as I was dancing free my mid-drift is showing, my shoulders are showing, and so is my spirit. And it’s all pretty damn nice so who cares. Because I don’t. I’ve gotten more and more comfortable in my skin. I’m learning to brush off the suppression and judgment of others. I’m learning how to heal myself as the triggers happen. And to not hide, but be bold enough to be my own boss.
And as a boss, I’m here to tell you, be you. Dance like no one is watching.
• Malabrigo Rios in colorway Pearl
Yarn will need to be worked from two balls as one is carried along the front.
Many of the supplies can be found at the affiliate links below:
• 20 sts and 30 rows = 4” (10 cm)
in sc in blo
• Adult size, brim stretches to
fit 19-23″ heads
• blo – back loop only
• ch – chain
• sl st – slip stitch
• RS – Right Side
• st(s) – stitch(es)
• WS – Wrong Side
• yo – yarn over
• Advanced Beginner
This hat is inspired by a wonderful knit stitch called the Quilted Lattice Stitch, found in Barbara Walker’s famous book, A Treasury of Knitting. It’s a beautiful book full of incredible inspiration. In recent years crocheters have desired to mimic many of these stitches. I hope I have done this stitch justice by doing it in my own crochet way.
-The Quilted Lattice Hat is working in rows and then joined. Once the end is gathered, place a pompom at the top of the hat. A brim will be crocheted on the other end.
-This hat can be worked in one or two colors. Either way, yarn will need to be split into two balls. It’s your choice which look you prefer.
-The chain 1 at the beginning of the row does not count as a stitch.
-The slip stitches are worked in the back loops only.
-Tip: at the end of each row where the second yarn is carried, to ensure tension is loose, giving the edges a tug can help.
Quilted Lattice Stitch Video:
Body of Quilted Lattice Hat:
Ch 38, working in blo: sl st in the second chain from the hook while also catching the second strand of yarn on the front. For the rest of this row the second strand of yarn will be carried loosely on the front of work, *sl st 5, sl st in next while also catching the second strand of yarn; repeat * across, turn.
Ch 1, working in blo: sl st in each stitch across, turn.
Ch 1, working in blo: sl st in first while also catching the second strand of yarn that will now be carried on the back of work for this row (wrong side of work is facing, second yarn will be carried along the right side of work not facing). Sl st 2, *place hook into next stitch while also slipping under the carried yarn from three rows below and catching the carried yarn, sl st 5; repeat * until last 3 sts, sl st 2, in last sts place hook into next stitch and catching the carried yarn, turn.
Ch 1, working in blo: sl st in each stitch across, turn.
Ch 1, working in blo and carrying second yarn on the front of work: place the hook under the strand carried three rows below, while also laying the carried yarn over the hook to catch it, and then sl st in the blo of first st, *sl st 5, place the hook under the strand carried three rows below, while also laying the carried yarn over the hook to catch it, and then sl st in the blo of next st; repeat * across, turn.
Repeat Rows 2-7 until the length of your hat reaches desired head circumference (22 total repeats).
Once repeats are finished, loosely slip stitch 72 stitches across one edge of the fabric.
Chain 6, slip stitch in 2nd chain from hook and across. Working in blo: slip stitch in 2 stitches on brim, turn.
Skip the two slip stitches on brim, in blo, slip stitch 5, turn.
Ch 1, in blo, slip stitch 5, slip stitch in 2 stitches on brim, turn.
Repeat rows 2-3 along the edge of brim.
Fasten off yarn leaving a long tail for seaming. The sides will be joined by working through the front and back loops respectively on each side.
When the needle comes to the center of one of the unworked strands sitting on your work from the last repeat row, place needle under strand and create a mock-stitch to join the design. Work this method all the way up the hat to the top.
For the top of the hat, loop your yarn around the end of the hat about every few rows. Pull yarn tight to close hat; weave in ends. Stitch pompom to top if desired.
Pompom Video Tutorial: